When did I forget how to be social?
Over the years, I have seen all the games played....sometimes as a player, but mostly as an observer. At first, and for years, it was just something I observed and was disgusted by....glad that I wasn't a part of it all. Gradually, I think I started to avoid having any kind of social relationships just so that I could avoid playing that game. The assumption being more and more that everyone seems to be a part of this big "game". Given that assumption, why bother ever talking to or continuing a friendship with anyone? Granted, that assumption is completely unfounded and irrational. I do realize that......but somehow, I've allowed myself to drift further and further apart from people who are close to me. My mind is a little jumbled right now, so I'll continue with this later. Just wanted to get this down as I was feeling it.